Borrrred...

Name:	Eva Berlin Fransiskus
Birthdate:	04 December 1987
Birthplace:	Semarang, Central of Java
Current Location:	Singapore
Eye Color:	Dark Brown
Hair Color:	Recently Dark Brown
Height:	157 cm
Weight:	51 kg
Piercings:	Ears
Tatoos:	None yet
Boyfriend/Girlfriend:	None
Overused Phraze:	"You know.."
FAVORITES
Food:	Fried Rice
Candy:	Don't really like candies
Number:	4
Color:	Indigo
Animal:	Snake
Drink:	Plain water, fruit juices
Alcohol Drink:	erm, does wine count?
Bagel:	*shrug*
Letter:	V
Body Part on Opposite sex:	Eyes
This or That
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi
McDonalds or BurgerKing:	McDonalds
Strawberry or Watermelon:	Watermelon
Hot tea or Ice tea:	Depends on the weather
Chocolate or Vanilla	Chocolate
Hot Chocolate or Coffee:	Coffee!
Kiss or Hug:	Hug
Dog or Cat:	Dog
Rap or Punk:	Punk
Summer or Winter:	Winter
Scary Movies or Funny Movies:	Scary, please.
Love or Money:	errrrrmmmmmm.....
YOUR...
Bedtime:	Around 11 pm-12 am
Most Missed Memory:	Last year of high school
Best phyiscal feature:	Lips
First Thought Waking Up:	"What day is it?"
Goal for this year:	Be very busy
Best Friends:	Many
Weakness:	Lazy
Fears:	That people know my fears :p
Heritage:	Many, really
Longest relationship:	Which relationship?
HAVE YOU...
Ever Drank:	Yupe
Pot:	Nope
Ever been Drunk:	Yes :p
Ever been beaten up:	Of course -_-
Ever beaten someone up:	Eh, not really
Ever Shoplifted:	Yes
Ever Skinny Dipped:	Nope
Ever Kissed Opposite sex:	No
Been Dumped Lately:	No
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color:	Blue
Favorite Hair Color:	Brown
Short or Long:	You mean hair or thoughts? *lol* Long for both questions, though.
Height:	Tall
Style:	Emo
Looks or Personality:	A little bit of both, please? :p
Hot or Cute	Preferably cute
Drugs and Alcohol:	If I have to choose, drugs
Muscular or Really Skinny:	Just medium
RANDOMS
Number of Regrets in the Past:	Too many
What country do you want to Visit:	Egypt, China, Ireland, USA, and many more
How do you want to Die:	Being killed
Been to the Mall Lately:	Yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes
Get along with your Parents:	Not really
Health Freak:	In a way, yes
Do you think your Attractive:	Ugh, I hope so
Believe in Yourself:	I have to
Want to go to College:	I already am
Do you Smoke:	Nope
Do you Drink:	Ocassionaly
Shower Daily:	Of course! Geez...
Been in Love:	Definitely...
Do you Sing:	Only when noone's around
Want to get Married:	NOT
Do you want Children:	Yes :)
Have your future kids names planned out:	Yes
Age you wanna lose your Virginity:	Erm....
Hate anyone:	Yes..
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Twilight

Just finished readying the much-hyped book of Twilight. I wasn't so interested in it, but since everyone's talking about it, I feel like it's my responsibility to read what's so interesting about it. Can't say I was impressed, just another book for teenagers. However, I give credit to the author for the effort. The way Meyer deliver her story is appealing, just enough humor here and there.

It does make us fall in love with love. With all the sickening thick coating of romanticism cream, too thick for my preference, I can't taste the real cake inside.

But it also makes me wonder: Do you think, honestly, that such love still exists in this world? No man -or woman, in this matter- has that much time for his other half anymore, no? Not many people have enough time even from themselves anymore.

And someone care for your safety more than for his own? Ahem.. I'm skeptical.

It is more believable that vampires exist than such love do.

Is imagination always much more beautiful than reality? Or perhaps, most of the time love does feel that way, only we are not poetic enough to put it into words?

"The glory of first love, and all that. It's incredible, isn't it, the difference between reading about something, seeing it in the pictures, and experiencing it?" -Edward.

After all has been said and done, are you really happy where you are?

WISH LIST!

Really really want (gonna get one of these days):

Butterfly phone strap

((given by a friend :) thanks!))

Just admiring (MAYBE going to get it in the far future):

Butterfly Halloween costume

Tiaras and hair accessories

Butterfly tiara

Haindpainting our images

Happy freaking birthday to me

Of course -I got a feeling- this year's birthday not as half as miserable as yesteryear's, but I don't know why I've been feeling moody these few days. I had a tiff with my longest best friend few days back. And since some days ago, people -PEOPLE- have been texting me with "happy advance birthday". I was like "what the...." But of course, for the sake of courtesy, I just said thank you, thank you for remembering anyway (I mean, what else could I ask of? What more do I deserve?).

The only thing (okay, not really THE ONLY) that cheer me up, is Christina Aguilera. That's right, the girl's back with a new album! Well, a greatest hits album, actually. But there are four new songs (or more like songs-sequel), and they are awesome! She still knows who she is, and proud of it!
The transformation between Hollywood Glam to Futuristic Babe is just cute.

For those who keeps saying Christina is a talentless bitch, HELLO? WAKE UP! Learn some music first! Then listen to Paris Hilton. And you can decide what a talentless bitch sounds like. Everybody agrees that Christina Aguilera is a precious jewel in music industry. Watch this and tell me if Britney, or even Miley Cyrus *roll eyes* able to deliver such live performance. Christina does no lip-sync, she'll let you know if she does, which only happen when she dances cos she's not a dancer, she's a musician.

Anyway, it's just great to listen to Christina songs and be reminded: "You are beautiful, no matter what they say. Words can't bring you down."

There's some women out there who talk and stare
Who never seem to let down their hair
Like to past judgement, but they're just scared
Shut up I don't care what you say.
Some days I'm a super bitch, next day I'm your super girl.

So yeah, I'm going to continue this post in few hours. See if there's any change in my day...

Jumper

And so I've finished watching Jumper today, after a few weeks credit-watching. Cinematography-wise, the film is cool. It has a vivid storyline in it and the cinematography is just awesome. Not to mention the editing --the editors must have had real tough time. It has got to win at least one Oscar in the coming year.

But looking through a commoner spectacle, the movie is weird.. The song 'Oops I Did It Again' by Britney Spears keeps ringing in my head while I was watching. Not the entire song, just the bit when it said 'I'm dreaming away; Wishing that heroes, they truly exist'. Especially "I told you I'm different" part.Cos it just funny how in films the main character would be heroes, saving the world and being different from, uh, the same kind and would fight to the death for the girl he loves. Gosh, that reminds me why I hate romance stories and movies.
Do you honestly sincerely wants me to believe that a guy would be willing to put himself in a miserable death to save the girl he love?

Yeah, it's a fiction anyway. There's no JUMPER in the first place. Oh, one thing I would believe, though: anyone, be it a girl or a guy, would gladly fight with his/her best friend just for his/her girl/guy. I know it first hand; it sucks.
No wonder Shakespeare said "You call it stupid, I call it love." Well, I'd say "You call it love, I call it mental disorder."

EOCI obsession

Most of the greatest masterpieces in this world are not -never- created on the purpose of money.

Men in this decade are the most un-chivalric of all time.
Is this the bad effect of gender equality?

~:~

Which is worse? To live in denial or to live in hatred?

Is this what it is?
Just another reason not to trust men.
Not to trust love.
Cos there's no such thing as happily-ever-after ending.
No knight or prince would want to fight THAT dragon to save THIS princess.

When I finally let someone step closer, it's just another pack of lies.
But I appreciate that that someone left quickly, causing less pain.
There's nothing to cry over.

I decided to change the link to my blog. It was my mistake at the first place: I shouldn't have let just anyone know the link to my journal; it could backfired at me. Now too many people know about this blog --and my thoughts-- it started to become uncomfortable.
Don't get me wrong. It would be just fine if strangers who read things here and felt insulted or otherwise, flattered. Troubles come when the people who read are those who know me halfway. They'll start to draw their own conclusion of who I am. It's scary.

This change of link would definitely create a tiny chaos as many of my close friends already know it and probably check it every once in a while. But no matter, those who really care will come to me and ask about my "missing blog."

Maybe I'll change back my blog link to its original name, for it is held a special connection for me. Maybe. I'll think about it later, though.

The Fiery Star....

And so I have done reading Mars/Earth Enigma (aren't I proud to have finished it). There are many interesting facts -and opinions- I never knew before. But I must say that Emerson (the writer) is too subjective in writing the book. There are many times she mentioned "as evidence strongly indicate," or "according to vast amount of evidence," but it's never exactly mentioned which evidences. If it's too long to list them, at least a reference at the end of the book should be given.
Emerson also drifting away a little too often from the book's topic. Talking about Nazi's conspiracy theory, linking it with Rome church and the ancient religion of goddess worshiping society.

But anyway, let's go back a bit to the Bible statement. I went to ask quote Biblical site unquote regarding the question, and guess what, YES, it is said in the Bible that God created earthS. For example, Hebrews 1:2 in the original language, or certain translations, the word is plural.
The list of the statement: Job 1:6-7; Eph. 3:10; Heb. 1:2; Heb. 11:3; Rev. 12:12.
Now, I never learn and never know the original language of the Bible, be it Hebrew or Greek, therefore I can't assure the truth. To believe or not to believe is completely your decision. I'll try to do more research on them, but won't be anytime soon.

These verses in the Bible, along the story of King Solomon, also indirectly used by Emerson to support her hypothesis of existence on Mars and other planets. But, as when you take reference from other books, it's unfair if you just pick up a sentence or two without letting the readers know what the whole passage is about. The sentence could sound supportive to your argument, but when you read the whole passage, it could have nothing whatsoever to do with the theme of your argument.

Anyway, in conclusion, if you really really are curious about Mars enigma AND have plenty of time in your hand AND don't mind a confusing language structure of a book, then you should pick up Mars/Earth Enigma. Otherwise, you might want to find another book on the topic.

Most of the time, imaginations are way too beautiful.

I know they all will leave sooner or later. But some of them still surprised me by leaving much sooner than I predicted.

Life is a big sarcastic joke.

Soundtrack of the day: Strange Boy by Kerli

If you love me, set me free. If I come back, I'm yours.
If I don't....well, see ya around!

The problem with people today is, we try to make everything easier and simpler.

Thus we make them less special.

For me, the greatest mystery in life is not whatever happened to Amelia Earheart. Or who built the Sphinx.
Or how did Alexander the Great die.
But, why did you leave?

-:-

An unfinished story is a lot more annoying than an unhappy ending. (成基)

Life on Mars?

Alright... So I'm reading this book called Mars/Earth Enigma: A Sacred Message to Mankind by DeAnna Emerson.
And there's this paragraph in this book, describing the relic of face on mars: "...the strange humanoid face with a tear in one eye,..." Guess what picture comes to my mind? [Hint: see picture on you right hand side] Okay, for Echelon, you definitely know whose mask this is (in a way, it's ours! *lol*). For those who don't understand, it's a 'trademark' mask of 30 Seconds to Mars.
Gosh, there really is more than meets the eyes with this band.
I knew the story behind their name is truly got something to do with Mars (beside the philosophy, that is), but about the mask....that's a new revelation.

There is another surprise regarding the topic.
I just got to know that there IS indeed a mention about life on other planets ON THE BIBLE. Yes, in the Christian Bible.
That's like, shattering all the beliefs I've ever had all this while. I mean, since I was young I've been taught "There is no such things like ET or whatever out here in the universe. The only life is here, on earth. No other planets. The Bible stated so. *the sentences go on...*)"So, imagine my surprise! IT IS MENTION OTHERWISE IN THE BIBLE, PEOPLE!
But wait, wait, wait, "the research" is not done yet. It could be some problem with the Bible translation *suspicious look* Will inform you more about that later, so PLEASE, don't draw conclusions just yet.

It's already so baffling, and I haven't even finished half of the book! I'm looking forward to be further "enlightened" by it :D

Soudtrack of the day: Feng by Jay Zhou

Horoscope for today:

You need to make some more room in your life for just goofing off! Why not give yourself permission to follow your mood every once in a while? Daydreaming never hurt anyone, and it certainly won't slow you down long enough today to hold you back from making progress. It's not a waste of time to imagine what life would be like if things were different -- it's a good way to stay creative! You need to make sure that you have at least a couple hours of free time, today.

Yeah, been thinking what my life would be if things were different.

Would it be better? Would it be more beautiful? Would it be less?

Would it be perfect instead?

Would I still be like who I am today?

Been wishing that it was different. Feeling that it would all be perfectly beautiful if my life was some other people's. But, as always, I got home. Look around, and realized that my life is still mine after all...

But hey, then again, that's just once-in-a-while feeling. Looking at brighter side, I thank God for what I have. I wouldn't trade it for anyone's life. For all that I've been through, has made me who I am today.

There are Five levels in this survey.

Level 1 : Not difficult

~ What are you wearing now?

- dark blue pajamas

~What's beside you?

- my brother's bike

~What are you doing now?

- answering this survey, duh..

~Where are your siblings?

- out there somewhere

~Are you okay?

- not really, I'm a bit tired.

Level 2 : Kinda difficult.

~What do you wish you had now?

- money, lots of it (okay, now, I'm not as materialistic as it sounds..)

~Have you told someone you loved them?

- of course.

~Last time you shouted.

- this morning :D

Do you like/love anyone right now?

-like? for sure. I like all my friends. love? what kind are you talking about?

What are you wondering/thinking about now?

- gosh, a lot!

Level 3 : Getting personal

~Have you ever thought you were gay?

- haha..sometimes.

~Have you ever wanted to tell someone how you really love him/her?

- yup

~Have you regretted loving someone?

- yes, still do.

~Would you kiss your ex-crush?

- on cheek, why not?

~Have you loved someone, but he/she doesn't know?

- yes, I have.

Level 4 : Get ready to spill your secrets.

~Have someone asked you to be her/his gf/bf but you rejected him/her and felt guilty?

- yes

~When was the last time a boy said ' i love you ' to you? ( family doesnt count )

- that exact word? I don't know, like, 5 years ago?

~When you hear a love/slow song, who comes into your mind?

- "gosh, the lyrics are so mushy!"

~Have you broke someone's heart?

- yes, I guess so... (so sorry, boy)

~Have you regret letting someone go?

- yes, so badly yes.

Level 5 : ( last level ) Random.

~Would you kiss someone 3 years from now?

- hmm why not?

~Do you think someone loves you? ( opposite gender )

- *shrug*

~Where is the best place to flirt?

- ahaha.. school??

~Would you date someone because you like his/her looks?

- ONLY because of his look? nope.

~Would you date someone who is not hot/cute but he really loves you?

- yes, totally.

Soundtrack: Bop Bop Baby by Westlife

The only thing that you ever gave me, you give to somebody else...

14 Oct 2008

The Bottom Line

Disengage from people who exhibit childlike behavior. They will only slow you down.

In Detail
Trying to figure out what is motivating other people is a waste of your time, so if you have been wringing your hands over a mysterious situation, stop. If someone isn't going to tell you what you need to know, they aren't going to tell you --no matter how long you wait or how many hoops you jump through. Move on today, and disengage from such childlike behavior. They have been having too much fun stringing you along, and you're no puppet. Too bad for them.

Does everything have its ad nauseam?

ad nau·se·am (d nôz-m)

adv.

To a disgusting or ridiculous degree; to the point of nausea.

[Latin ad, to + nauseam, accusative of nausea, sickness.]

from TheFreeDictionary.com

[Look in Google]

No matter what we do, no matter what we have, no matter good or bad, we'll get sick of it at some point.
In friendship, we get bored with each other, that's why we stop talking to or contacting each other.
Even couples divorce cos they sick of each other. Maybe they don't admit it, maybe they don't even realize it, but that could be the fact.
(Don't even make me start writing about family...)
That's could also be the reason we take things for granted.

-:-

"Yes I am, but I'd like to keep it that way. Now, leave me alone!"

Soundtrack of the day: Fighter by Christina Aguilera

Thank you for not believing in me; you make me learn to believe in myself...

"After all you've put me through, you'd think I despise you.
But in the end, I wanna thank you.
Cos you make me damn much stronger."

cinta dan matematika (hrs ngitung soalnya)

Silahkan main jg klo mau...

[x]pengen ketemu dia
[ ]mikirin kalo lagi ga ngapa2in
[x]selalu mikirin dy meski ad kerjaan
[x]senyum2 sendiri kalo lg mikirin dy
[ ]deg2an kalo ngbayangin wajahnya
so far: 3

[x]pengen dy sms kamu duluan
[x]pengen sms dy
[x]pengen dy nyapa kamu
[x]pengen ngobrol sm dy
[x]kdg pgn b2an
so far: 8

[ ]salting di depan dy
[ ]deg2an kalo dy ad d dkt kmu
[x]caper
[x]mencari keberadaannya
[x]spontan liat ke arah dy terus
so far: 11

[ ]berusaha buat ngbikin dy seneng
[x]cemburu liat dy ama cewe/ cowo lain
[ ]kl dtanya syp yg dsuka lgsg kpikiran dy
[x]nungguin sms dy
[x]pgn ksi sesuatu buat dy
so far: 14

[x]pgn meluk dy
[ ]pgn dy blg cinta
[ ]pgn dy menunjukkan rs cintanya
[ ]perna ngbayangin dicium dy
[ ]pgn milikin dy
so far: 15

nah skrg hasilna dkali 4...
15 × 4 = 60%

yah... "cinta" 60% doang.. haha..

"mỗi khi bên bạn không có ai.... thì hãy nhìn lên bầu trời đầy sao hay ánh nắng........ có thể là ở 1 nơi xa kia cũng đang có 1 người chia sẻ với bạn......"

*Quoted from someone's profile

"each side when you do not have one . please look up the skies full of stars or the sun .
may be in one place far there is one to share with you"

Merah Putih

First of all, happy birthday to my godbrother. Another year, eh, bro? :D

Wish all years in you life would be beautiful -just as you've made my life beautiful :) And please, stay being your strong self I've always known. I know we can't always be around each other as much as we want to, but I hope we'll stay like how we used to -err close-but-not-so-close? *lol*

Next, just want to write down my shoutout in my friendster :p

"Tell me, when you're looking down upon me, are you proud of who I am?"

O2Camp the 2nd day...

My team ready to fight the other team :D
Spot me?

Felix and Inez, before we leave for Sentosa (O2 Camp 26-27 Sept)
Oh, aren't they just cute?! *lol*

About today

1. Hari ini lebih baik dari kemaren?

gak, khusus hari ini, kmaren jauh lbh baik :(

2. Terakhir pergi mana?

ke kamar mandi, huaha..

3. Pergi terakhir dgn sapa?

with someone special :D :D

4. Ngapain aja?

hari ini? ritual pagi hari, kuliah, plg tdr, main internet d.

5. Yang kamu pelajari akhir-akhir ini?

wah, banyak banget. pljrn hidup gak abis2 nih..

6. Kamu setia?

dlm persahabatan, ya. dlm hal lain, gak janji d, huehe..

7. Tapi kamu ada pacar?

enggak. berminat? ngambil formulirnya di kls ku, bsk yah. haha..

8. Sayang ga?

ih, gak nyambung d.

9. Hari ini senang-senang?

gak, sedih! kmaren senang2nya, hehe..

10. Minuman terakhir yang masuk perut?

coffee, hehe..

11. Apa kamu cemburuan?

bisa diblg begitu.

12. Hal terakhir yang dilihat?

layar laptop.

13. Hal terakhir yang kamu tahan2?

duit kluar dr dompet (ktawan d, pelitnya)

14. Lagi deket sama?

*is confidential*

15. Cita -cita terakhir jadi?

jurnalis :)

16. Hal membingungkan yang terakhir dilakukan?

ngomong ama temen *swt, cape d*

17. Testi terakhir dari?

lolcatz :D

18. Curhat terakhir dengan?

buku diary :)

19. Hal terakhir yang masih kamu inget?

banyak dong.. aq gak menderita short-term memory loh..

20. Jatuh cinta terakhir sama?

awh! Jared Leto. haha..gakla, rhs d.

21. Ada berapa orang yang ada di otak kamu sekarang? siapa?

4. tmn2 kuliah..

22. Terakhir sebel sama?

maaf, nama disamarkan utk melindungi yg berdosa. hehe

23. Film terakhir yang ditonton?

Mirrors. lumayan loh, filmnya

24. Berita terakhir yang didengar?

eh, keboongan ssorg terbongkar, abis2an

25. Kalau temen kamu ngambil gebetan kamu?

awas 22nya! haha..gakla. bodo amat, I have better things to do.

26. Tugas terakhir yang dikerjain?

akun. duh, mati dah test minggu dpn. aq plg gak bisa akun. ssorg tlglah diriku!

27. Sebutin 1 nama "teman" yang kamu sayang?

teman dgn tanda kutip? please, klo aq sebutin, nyawa ssorg jd terancam.

28. Rencana hari ini mau ngapain aja?

uda malem om, plg baca2 ssuatu dikit trus bo2.

29. SMS terakhir dari?

Richery, huaha...

30. Feeling lu?

cape, cape, cape ati.

31. Lagu kesukaan lu sekarang ini?

awh, butterfly cry by kerli koiv

32.lagi pake baju apa?

bj tidur warna kuning.

33. mau balikan sm mantan?

enggak, makasih. gak dnger? when it's gone, it's gone, honey.

34. binatang kesukaan?

uler. ups!

35. terakhir meluk siapa?

pa2h

36. orang yg lagi lu kangenin?

hm.. tmn2 high school. hiks, miss u so much, guys!

37. lagu terakhir yang lu nyanyikan?

sama, butterfly cry by kerli koiv :D

38. kalau ada yg nembak lu?

kaget "huh?"

39. paling malem tidur jam berapa?

wah, pernah 36 jam kagak tdr.

40. besok mao bangun jam berapa?

7.40 as always

Check out my Friendster horoscope for today:

"Make sure you are realistic about today -- you must balance your optimism with caution, and not believe everything you see right away. Be a little bit more skeptical and don't shy away from questioning authority. This is not a time to take anything for granted -- while you want to think the best of people, sometimes it's just not smart. There is too much duality in the air, and too many people who are just saying what they think you want to hear."

It's eerily correct. I have just thought about how everyone deserves a second chance. I've always believed that everyone can change (we obviously know that people DO change). But that thought only cause me to question my own intelligence. And perhaps also cause some people to question my loyalty.

Now, that's one of the things I learn from Alexander (the Great, honey). When we decide to trust someone, trust him/her completely. Let it be difficult for you to doubt someone you've trusted. Which is why it's difficult for me to trust anyone, but once I trust him/her, it'd take so much to quiver the trust. But how disappointing (I foolishly hope too much) that not many people share the same sentiment. They easily doubt their own close friends. They, who think too much. They, who always think of or make up some twisted imagination in their heads.

When it's gone, it's gone. Let it go :)

Wanted to go, but don't know why, I changed my mind on the last minute :)

"Laugh is the sweetest gift we can give --definitely also for ourselves."

Show me that you can change, and I'll show you I can change my mind, too...

"The SC is not only where my image is at stake, but my self-esteem as well.."
...
"Why do God let me have this feeling when it'll only ruin me? He know, you know, we all know, that I can't afford to get distracted. Not right now, not in the next 14 years."

DRAFT!

Soundtrack of the day: Butterfly Cry by Kerli

"Affair of the heart is the undoing of a hero.."

When I'm not, you are.
When I do, you don't.
You're here, but you're so far away.
Within range but unreachable.

I try to deny, but how is it supposed to work?
Even though I don't ever say it, I still feel it.

This feeling is like a butterfly.
So fragile yet so strong.
The urge is so strong I'm suffocated.
Yet it's so fragile I know it'll die soon.
It'll die before we're able to comprehend.
Even before we realize it ever existed.

How good will its life be if it doesn't have to feel guilty
when it does the things that brings happiness for it.

How should anyone understand?
The sadness of the butterfly.
Cos its existence just another one
In this universe.
Alone.
Ordinary.
In vain.

I hate you not because of who you are..
But because you're proud that you are.

Fragile - Kerli

You think you know me. And everything that you consider me. You think you know my name. You think you know me. And everything you get a chance to see. You think you know my face.
You think you know my face.
You think you see me. And everything that you consider me. You think I’m more than you. You think you see me. You like the way I’m strong and stand by you. But I am fragile too. I am fragile too.
Yeah, I will be fine. As the time goes by. It may hurt at nights.
But I will be fine. Yeah, I will be just fine.
They think they know me. And everything that they consider me.
They think I never cry. They are thinking
While they’re making up their twisted lies. She won't mind,
she's nice.
She is cold as ice.
You think you see me. And everything that you consider me.
You think I’m more than you. You think you see me.
You like the way I’m strong and stand by you.
But I am fragile too.I am fragile too.
Just like you.

Disappointment.
I thought I knew him close enough by now. But just like human, there's always a side of him that's come to my surprise --and taken me off guard.
And guess what, I got to know his friend: Fed Up.

But, ah, a letter come to me today. From an Echelon. And it just cheered me up because of its kind words. It's funny cos the one who always made my day is Echelon. While all the others are just non-believer who would care --or rather, don't have time to care about me. And the even funnier thing, those "others" are the ones who laugh at Echelon most of the time. What the...?

It doesn't matter, though. It has been said: not everybody will understand it, and that's okay. It's just for the people that do.

Long live Echelon! Provehito in Altum!

One day...

Love always come hand in hand with sorrow --no, not only hand in hand, they're Siamese twin: you can't separate them. Even through operation, it'll be dangerous.
Is it worth it to let both come into our dwellings? Will there be enough space for both?