I think I'm in love. But I don't know whether it is love.
This kind of feeling can be very deceiving.
There are times when I'm missing him so much. Remembering our silent conversation. Remembering the things that we've shared to each other. Dreams, fear, worry, laugh, anger. Everything.
There are times when I hate him so much. For coming to my life... then dissappear without a trace. For giving me so much joy... then take it away like I don't deserve it. For teaching me to believe in love... then denying it himself.
There are times, I really want him to know: You mean so much for me. You know I'd give everything for you but you also know that I don't have everthing. If you want me to stay, I will do just that. If you want me to go away, because you happier that way ...I will do just that.
There are times I hate myself. Because I never had the courage to tell him everything I want him to know. Soundtrack: That's Where You Find Love by Westlife
"Ariel pull the prince out of the sea, out of danger, to the beach nearby. She looks at him, can't believe what she feels when she's looking at this magical being. Something she's never felt for someone she's never met --a creature she's never saw. A feeling that pulls her heart and her hand to touch this beautiful face. But when she's only a milimeter away from the prince... "someone's coming! I shouldn't be seen. But my prince..." And with that, Ariel hides herself behind a coral, scared of being seen, but even more scared someone's gonna hurt her prince. A princess, beautiful and demure, just like Ariel. But she has something that Ariel has not: a pair of legs. The princess kneel down beside Erick, exactly when he coughs and open his eyes...
The prince never know Ariel was there, that she is the one who has saved him from drowning. Instead, he married the princess, mistaken her for his savior, Ariel..."
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Ariel's getting more and more anxious, "Why hasn't he replied my sms?" Suddenly she remembers, "he must be online". She's right, he was waiting her on the chat room. -Hei, whats wrong? y didnt u replied my sms? -Hei..yeah,sorry,its my cell. it just wont send any sms. -Oh? thats weird. have u check the settings? -Wait...Hei,can u check ur settings for me? -OK..which one? -Cell broadcast,is it on or off? -Ok,nothings wrong then..
Ariel goes silent, she thinks he is already check all the settings, so she doesn't know what to say. Then Erick says: -Oh,just 4get it. What r u doing? -........ -........
.......days later..... -Hey,hows ur cell? -Oh,its ok now. It turns out to be the msg centres.. -Oh.... -Maybe its changed automatically when I went to sg. -I c... How did u find out it was the msg centres? -Vanessa told me,when we were playing bowling together I asked her bout it. And she fixed it for me :) -...
Ariel's heart sank. The msg centres? What did she told Erick? The settings! And she meant EVERYTHING in the settings... :'( Ariel really wishes that she was there that time. She could've fixed it for him. She...doesn't know what to say...or what to feel anymore. Oh, gosh!
I walk down the stairs, get in to the car. Forget about him. And close the door. I cant. I sit... and look up. You don't love him. I know you would be standing at the window, I was right. I do. You're looking down, in the darkness that surrounding. Oh, I love him. I'm almost sure you are looking at me, but wait... She's in the car too. But he doesn't love me... I curse my human eyes... cos because of them I cant see your face clearly. Or does he..?
I'm sitting here, at the backsit. Looking up to you, standing at your window, looking down. Who are you looking at, boy? Me..? Or she, at the front sit? I've never stopped wondering..
This poem was written by a young girl who committed suicide some years ago. Please show someone you care for them today. It mean so much to others, take some little of your time to smile, tell your friends that you care about them, give them a warm hug, or throw them some jokes if you can. Loving each others is more beautiful than everything in this universe.
The Greatest Pain in Life
The greatest pain in life is not to die, but to be ignored.
To lose the person you love so much to another who doesn't care at all. To have someone you care so about so much throw a party... and not tell you about it. When your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to his graduation. To have people think that you don't care.
The greatest pain in life, is not to die, but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after another's great achievement. To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi". When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face. For friends are always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits. When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.
Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better? Will people ever care about each other, and make time for those who are in need? Each of us has a part to play in this great show we call life. Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them. If you do not care about your friends you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored... forgotten... as you have done to others.
Pada suatu waktu Aku terbaring terpaku Ketika sebuah angan menerpaku Betapa hidup takkan berliku Bila aku bisa menjadi hantu
Bukan hantu bertaring berambut kaku Bukan pula hantu berbaju putih bermata sayu Hanya aku, diriku, tapi hantu
Hidup akan sepi, aku tahu Tanpa keluarga, dan teman tempat mengadu Tidak mengetahui indahnya baju baru Tidak pula mengenakan sepatu
Tapi bukankah itu yang kita mau? Untuk apa ada keluarga bila sama tak bisa mengadu? Ada teman, tapi tak bisa bersatu? Tau indah, tapi tak ada uang untuk membeli baju Juga tidak untuk membeli sepatu baru Menggantikan sepatu lama dari 5 tahun yang lalu Tidak juga pusing ingin memilih makan singkong atau keju Karena perut dan lidah telah kelu sebagai hantu Juga takkan tersipu malu Mendengar hinaan darimu
"I live with my godfather. Nothing special about him. He's just like any other fathers. Sometimes, he even treat me bad.
But I don't care. I have a real father, who loves me so much, and gives me everything I want [good things of couse]. My real father lives far away from me. We have never meet each other since a long time ago. But we talk sometimes. The sad thing is, he seems to be very busy lately. I call him many times everyday, but he didn't answer. Well, not yet. I'm sure he will call me soon.
My real father has promised me one thing: One day, he will come and take me home. My real home, home where I live so many years ago, where there is no tears and pain. I wish I can go there soon. To the home where I can live with my real father.
P.S.: Father, I miss you. Call me soon, would you?"
One of my favourite songs of all time, this song never failed to get me carried away. It's deep in meaning; just wanna share it with other philosophers of love out there. The translation is by me, so I'm so sorry if it's doesn't quite literal (that's not the point of a poem, right?).
For another translation, click here.
I don't remember anymore, how long have it been The last time I heard you talked about your favorite fairy tale I'm thinking hard, I'm starting to forget Have I done you any wrong? While crying you told me, fairy tales are all lies There's no way I'm your prince charming Probably you just don't understand The moment you tell me you love me All the stars in my world are sparkling
I will, I can, and I want to be the angel that you love from the fairy tales Spread my arms turn to wings to protect you You have to believe, believe that what we have can be like fairy tales
Happy ever after is the end of us
Together will we write our 'The End'