Soundtrack of the day: White Flag by Dido (in a happy context, please)

Listen to this, this is my horoscope of the day from Friendster:

You're never more happy than when you're needed -- you should be very happy, today!

It's always surprising how the horoscope can SOMETIMES really point out what's going to happen to day. Well, of course, the rest of this horoscope is not as precise as it should be. The later explanation of why I should be happy is completely wrong.. But anyway, what I'm trying to say is, YES, I AM SO VERY HAPPY TODAY! I've told you that these are happiest days in my life, but today, I have particular reasons to be happy; I'm not going to elaborate on them, though :p

Anyway, move on to another topic: After much reminiscing (and few cups of coffee) in the last 25 hours, I've come up with the "insanest" theory:
The problem in this Life is not about it's being fair or unfair, but rather, the problem is us being jealous. Yes, jealousy.When you think that your friend get higher mark than you, and you deserve whole lot better than you get, you think that life is unfair. Well, probably you're just jealous.
When the cute guy over there is paying more attention to the annoying b!#ch across than nice sweety girl over here. And you think life is unfair. Well, guess what, it's probably just jealousy.

Don't you agree?

It's not a bad thing, though.
I've come to believe that jealousy is there to balance our ego, so that we always remember that we're not that great, that there are many other people better, nicer, richer, prettier, etc, than you are.
We can also use it for a better purpose. Ambitious as it may sound, we can use jealousy (with hatred, if you must) as a driving force to reach something you want. Believe me, it works so well..

Now is an excellent time to take stock of where you are -- and where you want to go in one of your personal relationships. Things have been complicated lately, and they need to be addressed. So seek the quieter path right now and give yourself time to replay the events of the past few days in your head. If you are feeling introspective and moody, just go with it -- it's the perfect frame of mind for figuring out what this person really means to you.

Yesterday, I went to National Library with a close friend of mine. I knew right from the start that it's a mistake, because we'll talk a lot and a library isn't a right place to to it. Correct enough, by the time we have seated, we started to giggling away at some pictures in my laptop. My bad (or rather, OUR bad), I have to admit...
And so, a man beside us got so annoyed he scolded us, "Diamlah! Nanti kuhajar kalian!" Yes, he said it in Malay (which surprised me double) which mean, "Shut up! Or I'll beat you up!". I was so startled I only nod my head.

Well, we quickly run away afterwards (move to other place to continue our giggles, that is)

When I was in the bus heading home few hours later, I look around me and all I see was tired faces and short-tempered people (I say so because people who were getting into the bus are pushing each other with annoyed faces and, of course, nobody has even the slightliest smile on his/her face). And I was reminded of the angry man at the library I met earlier; so my mind started to run wild: Is this world so lack of patience these days? Do we really so desperately need more love in this life?
I mean, like the man in the library, he could just tell us to be quiet and we'll understand. Is there any need to be enraged and "beat us up"? (I find his words pretty amusing, actually, but I totally dared not to laugh). But, oh well, what do I know? He probably had a real bad day...

I've heard quote certain people unquote said, "It's always troublesome when it comes to connecting with people." I cannot emphasize enough how disagree I am with this statement.

Of course it can be very challenging to have contact with many different people in this surprising world, but quoting Jared Leto (the inspiring Jared Leto *lol*): "I’ve had my share of intense experiences with people, but I’m not about to start living my life in a box."

It is true, don't you agree? The more angry people we meet in our everyday life, the more we need to go out there and share the rare love this world need. And perhaps also some extra laughter. To see it in different perspective, it can be an exciting challenge that make our life less dull.

Right, soundtrack of the day is Stupid Girls by Pink.

It's just hanging around my head since yesterday. I try not to think about it, cos it's like an old injustice since the ancient time (well, not really, perhaps only since the created the term "celebrity"), but it keeps lingering around:

It's the topic of "The Popular Girls"

Uh-huh. So we all know that they're the ones who always get the attention. Not only by the guys, but also by the teachers, and everyone in between. Have you seen the movie 'Mean Girls'? It's pretty much like that. I don't even want to talk about it cos it's such a common knowledge it gets sickening.

But one other thing that bothers me ugly is, they hate studying. They didn't exactly come to school for studying. I can't say for sure that they like knowledge or education, either. But with less effort, they get the pretty much the same result as other people --as other diligent people.

And so, the most glorious question of all time emerges: WHY?

So, we also know that this life is unfair, right? That we -or, I- should just get over with it and face facts, right? But, I can't! It's just....

Why? WHY? WHY?!

I began to have doubts about the Academy I study in [may God forgive my poor soul]. Perhaps I should have went to a school where all the students are geeks, and there's no so-called popular anybody. But oh well, I'm here anyway. God put me here for a reason (right?). Might as well carry on till the last drop of blood.

Stupid girls

Stupid girl, stupid girls, stupid girls
Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Go to Fred Segal, you'll find them there
Laughing loud so all the little people stare
Looking for a daddy to pay for the champagne (Drop a name)
What happened to the dreams of a girl president
She's dancing in the video next to 50 Cent
They travel in packs of two or three
With their itsy bitsy doggies and their teeny-weeny tees
Where, oh where, have the smart people gone? Oh where, oh where could they be?
Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Baby if I act like that, flipping my blond hair back
Push up my bra like that, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
(Break it down now)
Disease's growing, it's epidemic. I'm scared that there ain't a cure
The world believes it and I'm going crazy. I cannot take any more
I'm so glad that I'll never fit in - That will never be me
Outcasts and girls with ambition. That's what I wanna see
Disasters all around. World despaired
Their only concern: "Will they **** up my hair?"
[Interlude]
Oh my god you guys, I totally had more than 300 calories
That was so not sexy, no. Good one, can I borrow that?
[Vomits] I WILL BE SKINNY
(Do ya thing, do ya thing, do ya thing)
(I like this, like this, like this)
Pretty will you **** me girl, silly as a lucky girl
Pull my head and suck it girl, stupid girl!
Baby if I act like that, flipping my blond hair back
Push up my bra like that, stupid girl!