Fragile - Kerli

You think you know me. And everything that you consider me. You think you know my name. You think you know me. And everything you get a chance to see. You think you know my face.
You think you know my face.
You think you see me. And everything that you consider me. You think I’m more than you. You think you see me. You like the way I’m strong and stand by you. But I am fragile too. I am fragile too.
Yeah, I will be fine. As the time goes by. It may hurt at nights.
But I will be fine. Yeah, I will be just fine.
They think they know me. And everything that they consider me.
They think I never cry. They are thinking
While they’re making up their twisted lies. She won't mind,
she's nice.
She is cold as ice.
You think you see me. And everything that you consider me.
You think I’m more than you. You think you see me.
You like the way I’m strong and stand by you.
But I am fragile too.I am fragile too.
Just like you.

I always praise parents because of their child,
and not the child because of their parents.

The dark cloud places a piece of shadow in our hearts

I listen respectfully to my mood,
which has already been quiet for a long time
Clear and transparent
Just like the beautiful scenery
It's always only clear when seeing it in my memory
Can the heart, that has been thoroughly hurt, still continue to love me?
I make an effort to pull up the pair of hands that have no warmth
The tenderness in the past has already been locked by time
Only leaving sadness that doesn't go away
The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
I light a candle to warm up the end of autumn
The northern lights plunder the edge of the sky
The northern wind brushes past the expressions of missing you
I take love and burn it into fallen leaves
Yet I can't get back that familiar face
The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
Why must retrieving be hurried before winter comes?
Loving you passing through time
Two rows of tears from the end of autumn
Let love permeate through the ground
All I want is you to be by my side
The graceful red rain in between the mountainside
Withering with the north wind
I lightly swing the wind chimesI want
To awaken the love that has been deserted
Snowflakes are already spread all over the ground
Deeply scared that the maple leaves outside the window have already become frozen

song by Jay Chou

Life of Alexander the Great

356 - The birth of Alexander the Great
343 - Aristotle becomes Alexander's tutor
340 - Alexander becomes regent
339 - Alexander joins Philip on campaign
338 - Battle of Chaeronea
337 - Philip marries Cleopatra
336 - Darius becomes King of Persia
Philip murdered; Alexander becomes King of Macedonia
335 - Cleopatra and Europa murdered; Alexander Greek campaign
334 - Battle of Granicus
333 - Battle of Issus
332 - Siege of Tyre; Alexander crowned Pharaoh of Egypt
331 - Alexander visits Oracle at Siwah
Battle of Gaugamela
330 - Burning of Persepolis
Darius murdered; Parmenio murdered
329 - Crossing Hindu Kush
328 - Alexander murders Cleitus
327 - Alexander marries Roxanne of Sogdiana
Pages conspiracy; Callisthenes killed
326 - Battle of Jhelum
Alexander's army mutinies
325 - Alexander wounded by the Malli
Makran Desert journey
Death of Bucephalus
324 - Hephaestion's death
Mass marriages in Susa
323 - Alexander the Great's death

Stumble on this "article" on one of the chain emails I got. It has some interesting points and facts that I feel I should share with other. Please don't take it too seriously. Kindly have some sense of humor.

Hell, Once Upon a Time
Once upon a time, there was the world, and it was good.
Then people got all pissed off about everything, and there was violence and sin, and that was bad. Then people decided they needed a device to stop people from doing so much violence and sin, and there was Hell, and it was good.
 Hell is the ultimate deterrent — an eternity of pain and suffering. You can't come up with a much more brutal retribution than that. The only catch is that the deterrent only works when people a) believe in it, and b) fear it so much that they lay off the violence and sin.
There are a number of problems selling Hell to the public at large. For one thing, eternity is a difficult concept to get your head around. For another, everyone has a different idea about how the cosmos works morally. For Hell to succeed, it has to be horrific beyond belief, and ideally it needs to be drilled into the heads of children at a very early age, so that the fear will stick even after the intellect has grown past the concept.
The earliest concepts of Hell were less punitive than nihilistic. Early humans had to come to terms with the concept of death, and a number of ideas were developed along these lines. The most optimistic viewpoint was reincarnation, present in many cultures around the world, but the ancient Jews were not the most optimistic lot, so they added a layer of unpleasantness to the Great Wheel of Life. Before being reincarnated, they believed, the soul made a pit stop in Sheol, a depressing underground place where every day is Monday, and it always looks like it's just about to rain but it never quite does. No eternal pit of fire, but the good times are definitely over. Some Jewish sects believed that reincarnation came after a spell in Sheol, others just kind of left souls there to rot (or whatever souls do).
Other early religions had various concepts of a bad place where dead people hang out. The ancient Hindus believed in Hell before switching over to reincarnation. Egyptians believed in an underworld, where souls traveled through trials before returning to their bodies. The Romans and Greeks shared a version of Hell called Hades, which heavily influenced later renditions. But the Judeo-Christian Hell was the one that really stuck.
The Jewish Sheol eventually evolved into Gehenna, which roughly equates to purgatory — a place where souls are punished or cleansed of their sins — but the concept was never "proven" as an established teaching, leaving the matter of an afterlife largely to individual believers. The coming of the Christians changed all that.
 When Jesus Christ arrived on the scene, a new set of contradictions arose. On the one hand, Jesus taught of God as a loving father figure, in sharp contrast to the vengeful God of the Old Testament. But love and hate are a double-edged sword. Although the Christian God had a whole lotta love on hand for believers, sinners were condemned to the fiery pit. As the Christian church became more complicated, so too did the vision of Hell.
 By the middle ages, Hell was a rather well-defined place. The ultimate map of Hell was drafted by Dante in his epic poem Inferno, part of his inappropriately named "Divine Comedy".

Dante famously divided Hell into nine concentric circles of increasing nastiness, behind a gate with the logo:

 "Abandon Hope, All Ye Who Enter Here"

Circle One: Almost every student struggling through a Catholic school education inevitably arrives at the theological question: What happens to innocent people who are not baptized through no fault of their own? The Church invented "limbo" for this concept; Dante made it the first circle of Hell, a sort of Hell Lite. The first circle of Hell offers a kinder, gentler repose for noble pagans born before Christ and other generally cool historical figures who happen not to be Christians, such as Homer, Ovid, Socrates and presumably figures like Ghandi and maybe Malcolm X. Captives in the First Circle of Hell were subjected mostly to the ravages of generalized anxiety disorder without the benefit of Paxil but with all the side effects (nausea, asthenia, constipation, infection, dry mouth, yawn, diarrhea, sweating, decreased appetite, sleepiness, dizziness, insomnia, tremor, nervousness, and sexual side effects).

Circle Two: Lust! As the most understandable of the major sins, lust only makes circle two of Hell, where lustful lovers are tossed about by stormy winds and forbidden from making wild monkey love. It's unclear whether they're allowed to jerk off. Home to Cleopatra, Tristan and Isolde, the Marquis de Sade and eventually Larry Flynt.

Circle Three: Gluttons live here, and are punished for their gluttony by being subjected to bad weather. Seasonal affective disorder is a bitch! There's also a big dog. Captives include Chris Farley and Divine.

Circle Four: You don't hear a lot about avarice these days, but the medieval mindset classified it as a major sin. The greedy are condemned here to working for the man every night and day, doing pointless and menial tasks. Future residents include Bill Gates and Martha Stewart.

Circle Five: The angry spend eternity duking it out here, naked in a vast river of jello (or possibly water, my Italian is a bit rusty). Look for Sean Penn, Dick Cheney and Jerry Falwell.

Circle Six: This circle of Hell is filled with "heretics," by which Dante mostly means Muslims (though to be fair, Hell has several Popes in residence as well). This circle would technically also include figures like Aleister Crowley, Jack Parsons, Martin Luther and Rael. Rumor has it John Ashcroft is planning random sweeps through the Sixth Circle in search of Terrorists. Everyone in the Sixth Circle is just an ordinary guy, BURNING DOWN THE HOUSE.


Circle Seven: Ah, violence! You gotta love violence! Dante classified three kinds of violence — against self, against others and against God. Inhabitants spotted by Dante included Attila the Hun and Alexander the Great. Since this category includes warmongers, George W Bush is a potential future inmate. Dante's definition of "violence against God" inexplicably includes sodomy, which he classes as a more serious crime than murder, so the Seventh Circle could potentially host Robert Mapplethorpe and Oscar Wilde, who would be flayed on burning sands, while Adolf Hitler would merely be turned into a tree for the crime of Suicide. There is no justice.

Circle Eight: If the Seventh Circle offended your sensibilities, the Eighth is simply baffling. In the next worst circle of Hell, the sufferings of the damned would be inflicted on those who have committed the following sins (all of which are deemed more evil than murder and warmongering). In order of increasing severity: Pandering, flattery, hypocrisy, fortune telling, theft, giving bad advice, instigating trouble, alchemy, impersonation, counterfeiting, lying, and being a giant.

Circle Nine: The Ninth Circle is for betrayers of every stripe, with all the big names in betraying thoroughly represented. Judas, Brutus, Cassius, Benedict Arnold, John Wayne Bobbit, Big Pussy from the Sopranos, Cain, Lando Calrissian, Jim Bakker, Richard M. Nixon, the Rosenbergs, Randy Savage, and finally, frozen in hell's center, Satan himself. Judas, Cassius and Brutus are actually being eternally chewed by Satan, who has an intense dislike for Shakespearean characters.

Lessons I've learnt lately --and STILL AM learning

God loves you. No matter you believe it or not.
And by the way, God exist, no matter you believe it or not [but you'd better believe it though] -030906

I've learnt that if you want have a good relationship with people around you [and with yourself], you have to start with your relationship with God. -120706

We should do some crazy things before we grow too old to do that -200706

I've learnt that tomorrow is not alway better than today. So I learn to appreciate today.
I've learnt that tomorrow will only be better if you already work on it. -120706

The way you look at people is very important, very affecting. -190306

If you don't want to get hurt, don't put your trust to anyone, no matter how convincing he/she is. But if you really love someone, you wouldn't mind to get hurt -030906

And finally, after so long, I've learnt what true love is.
True love is when you're being forsaken, you still love him. Even when he save the other person first, not you, from drowning, you still love him. -130706

Loving is giving happiness, not asking for it.
Loving is, "I want you to be happy, no matter what it means" -130706

And now I know what being loved truly is. Being loved is being not taken for granted. -090306

Truth is hurts [sometimes], but lies hurt even more -270906

In the end, everybody will grow old, grey and ugly. And what left is, what experiences you have to share with your children and grandchildren?
So I don't mind my skin become darker if I could just learn swimming :)) -190906

Don't be ashamed by what other people have done to you. Be ashamed by something you've done to other people -290906

Great things did not happen overnight -151006

Lessons I've learnt lately....the sequel

Lessons I've learned from my bro..
My bro is gonna kill me if he read this. But I think he's "...too busy" to do so. Even if he has the time, I don't think he cares enough to read MY blog.
Like I said: Truth is horrible sometimes. I am sorry, I'm just the messenger. And, we do need to hear the truth sometimes.

1.Don't pretend you're happy with someone's presence when you're not.
YOur little reactions will give you away. Like when you're get so excited when that someone is about to leave --THAT will give you away. 071006

2. How hurtful lies can be --but sometimes it is necessary [and okay] to do it.

3. Love relationship is such a waste of time in young age, except you love to rub and being rubbed --*sick face* rrrgh you know what I mean.

4. Buying expensive things and/or many things for someone does not necessary mean that you love that person. 151006
What I mean is, when you love someone and intend to show him/her that you love him/her, there are millions things you can do other than buying them things.

5. Don't give when you're not asked to or when you don't feel like giving.
Because if you do, by the time that person ask something -he/she really needs- from you, you'd think you've given too much, then you'll get angry. 071006

6. It is true that this world is not fair, and we have to get used to it. But that does not give us the rights to do unfair things to other people.

7. Just because you/I don't see it, doesn't mean it didn't happen.

Soundtrack of the day: Where'd you go by Fort Minor

Keepers of faith..

Are you a believer?

It's true...

This poem was written by a young girl who committed suicide some years ago.
Please show someone you care for them today.
It mean so much to others, take some little of your time to smile, tell your friends that you care about them, give them a warm hug, or throw them some jokes if you can.
Loving each others is more beautiful than everything in this universe.

The Greatest Pain in Life

The greatest pain in life is not to die, but to be ignored.

To lose the person you love so much to another who doesn't care at all.
To have someone you care so about so much throw a party... and not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to his graduation.
To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life, is not to die, but to be forgotten.

To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".
When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
For friends are always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.

Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other, and make time for those who are in need?
Each of us has a part to play in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends you will not be punished.

You will simply be ignored... forgotten... as you have done to others.

Ecclesiastes 4:2-3

And I declared
_____that the dead, 
________are happier than the living, who are still alive.  

But better than both 
_____is he who has not yet been, 
_________who has not seen the evil that is done under the sun.