Another story of love

Well, I stumbled onto this video of Lindsay Lohan's 'Over', and I almost cry when I watch it. Nope, not exactly because of the touching story the video clip tells, but because of how resemble it is to the story I have in my head for so many years! -- I even already have the name and the background for each character! *shudder with excitement*


Yeah, it is my bad that I've never wrote the story down. Well, not yet. I currently have two other stories I need to write down. Grrr, I have so many stories in my head that I just couldn't write onto words.

"Never judge a book by its cover"

"Never judge a book by its cover", how many times have we heard this saying? But how many times have we failed to do it? Or instead should I say: how many times have we succeeded to do it?
It is alway easier to point your finger at everyone else, than to point it towards yourself, isn't it?
Hrrgh..whatever. I'm just having a super bad day today. And I think I'm going crazy. All I think of is just him. Can't concentrate myself to other things. And what does he have to do with judging a book by its cover? Well, people judge him because of who he is. Fact is, those people don't know him. And those people judge me because I love him for who he is. Shallow people. They're so lost.

"This is the story of unspoken love..."

I'm soo broken hearted...

Would you date this girl? Oh I know you just would...

HOT, isn't she?
But, sorry guys, she's taken.. by Kian Egan of Westlife *sob-sob*. Her name is Jodi Albert, she's an Irish actress, acted on Hollyoaks. Notice how he held her hand in this interview *sob harder*:

Lessons I've learnt lately --and STILL AM learning

God loves you. No matter you believe it or not.
And by the way, God exist, no matter you believe it or not [but you'd better believe it though] -030906

I've learnt that if you want have a good relationship with people around you [and with yourself], you have to start with your relationship with God. -120706

We should do some crazy things before we grow too old to do that -200706

I've learnt that tomorrow is not alway better than today. So I learn to appreciate today.
I've learnt that tomorrow will only be better if you already work on it. -120706

The way you look at people is very important, very affecting. -190306

If you don't want to get hurt, don't put your trust to anyone, no matter how convincing he/she is. But if you really love someone, you wouldn't mind to get hurt -030906

And finally, after so long, I've learnt what true love is.
True love is when you're being forsaken, you still love him. Even when he save the other person first, not you, from drowning, you still love him. -130706

Loving is giving happiness, not asking for it.
Loving is, "I want you to be happy, no matter what it means" -130706

And now I know what being loved truly is. Being loved is being not taken for granted. -090306

Truth is hurts [sometimes], but lies hurt even more -270906

In the end, everybody will grow old, grey and ugly. And what left is, what experiences you have to share with your children and grandchildren?
So I don't mind my skin become darker if I could just learn swimming :)) -190906

Don't be ashamed by what other people have done to you. Be ashamed by something you've done to other people -290906

Great things did not happen overnight -151006

Lessons I've learnt lately....the sequel

Lessons I've learned from my bro..
My bro is gonna kill me if he read this. But I think he's "...too busy" to do so. Even if he has the time, I don't think he cares enough to read MY blog.
Like I said: Truth is horrible sometimes. I am sorry, I'm just the messenger. And, we do need to hear the truth sometimes.

1.Don't pretend you're happy with someone's presence when you're not.
YOur little reactions will give you away. Like when you're get so excited when that someone is about to leave --THAT will give you away. 071006

2. How hurtful lies can be --but sometimes it is necessary [and okay] to do it.

3. Love relationship is such a waste of time in young age, except you love to rub and being rubbed --*sick face* rrrgh you know what I mean.

4. Buying expensive things and/or many things for someone does not necessary mean that you love that person. 151006
What I mean is, when you love someone and intend to show him/her that you love him/her, there are millions things you can do other than buying them things.

5. Don't give when you're not asked to or when you don't feel like giving.
Because if you do, by the time that person ask something -he/she really needs- from you, you'd think you've given too much, then you'll get angry. 071006

6. It is true that this world is not fair, and we have to get used to it. But that does not give us the rights to do unfair things to other people.

7. Just because you/I don't see it, doesn't mean it didn't happen.

Soundtrack of the day: Where'd you go by Fort Minor

Ballad of a b*st*rd??

This story just come to me when I was reminiscing on my bed last night.

One day, a boy and a girl who's dating each other hang out with their friends. While their on their way to a mall, the rain starts to fall. They all immediately run to the nearest place to take shelter. While they're waiting for the rain to stop, the boyfriend notice that his girl's best friend is feeling cold. He remembers that he brings a jacket that he isn't wearing, so he ask her whether she wants to wear it. My question is, is it wrong if the boy ask the other girl instead of his girlfriend? And what should the girlfriend do then?

Please leave comment. I really really want to know what do you think of that story, so please say something -anything, ok?
Thank you!

About * L O V E *

Bila suatu hari pasangan Anda meminta Anda melakukan atraksi sirkus: berjalan diatas seutas tali yang terbentang di ketinggian 3 meter, sekadar untuk menyenangkan hatinya, akankah anda melakukannya? Anda tahu itu akan menjadi tindakan yang sangat bodoh, bila anda benar-benar melakukannya. 

“Sekadar untuk menyenangkan hatinya? Bagaimana bila aku jatuh dan patah tulang?” Anda juga tahu, bila pasangan Anda benar-benar mencintai Anda, ia tidak akan meminta Anda melakukan hal konyol seperti itu. Tetapi pertanyaannya adalah, akankah Anda melakukannya untuk dia –-dia, yang Anda cintai?

Mencintai adalah sebuah pilihan. Mencintai bukanlah menginginkan, apalagi meminta kebahagiaan. Sebaliknya, mencintai adalah memberikan kebahagiaan pada orang yang anda cintai. Cinta itu harus tetap ada, bahkan ketika orang yang kita cintai tidak (lagi) mencintai kita. Mencintai bukanlah sekadar “aku akan tetap mencintaimu walaupun kamu pergi.”

Tetapi, “aku akan tetap mencintaimu walaupun kamu menyelamatkan dia terlebih dahulu, ketika dia dan aku akan tenggelam.”

Mereka bilang, cinta butuh pengorbanan. Tidak. Bila Anda benar-benar mencintai, Anda tidak akan merasa sedang berkorban.

Kita harus mulai merevisi ulang makna cinta dalam kamus hidup kita. Akan menjadi pekerjaan yang sulit, memang, karena sudah entah berapa lama makna ‘cinta’ itu disalah-artikan.

-inspired by: I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris

From both sides~

I saw her today

It's been a long time
Feel like centuries
She seems alright
He look just like he used to
We talked for a while
I can't take my eyes off him
She kept looking at me, don't know why
He didn't want to look at me, don't know why
She asked, "how are you?"
He asked, "do you have a boyfriend?"
I told her about my new girlfriend
I said no...
I pretended that I care
I pretended that I don't care
She look different from she used to
He looked more attractive that he was
She said, "ok then, see you around"
He said, "goodbye.."
Then I went to play basketball
Then I went home and cry

Love~

I think I'm in love.
But I don't know whether it is love.

This kind of feeling can be very deceiving.
There are times when I'm missing him so much.
Remembering our silent conversation.
Remembering the things that we've shared to each other.
Dreams, fear, worry, laugh, anger. Everything.

There are times when I hate him so much.
For coming to my life... then dissappear
                without a trace.
For giving me so much joy... then take it away
                like I don't deserve it.
For teaching me to believe in love... then denying it himself.

There are times, I really want him to know:
You mean so much for me.
You know I'd give everything for you
                but you also know that I don't have everthing.
If you want me to stay, I will do just that.
If you want me to go away, because you happier that way
                                                ...I will do just that.

There are times I hate myself.
Because I never had the courage to tell him everything I want him to know.
Soundtrack: That's Where You Find Love by Westlife

10July06 --the whole story

I walk down the stairs, get in to the car.
Forget about him.
And close the door.
I cant.
I sit... and look up.
You don't love him.
I know you would be standing at the window, I was right.
I do.
You're looking down, in the darkness that surrounding.
Oh, I love him.
I'm almost sure you are looking at me, but wait...
She's in the car too.
But he doesn't love me...
I curse my human eyes... cos because of them I cant see your face clearly.
Or does he..?

10July06

I'm sitting here, at the backsit.
Looking up to you, standing at your window, looking down.
Who are you looking at, boy?
Me..? Or she, at the front sit?
I've never stopped wondering..

Soundtrack: If I let you go by Westlife

My quotes~

~* The sad thing is, I can't have the only thing that belongs to me*~

Life is suck...
And it even more suck without you

(-I've learnt, the way u look @ people is very important, very affecting-)

*)Now I know what it is to be loved, it's being not taken for granted(*

_-Don't be ashamed by what other people have done to you. Be ashamed by something you've done to other people-_

..-I don't hate him. It's just...It's hurts so bad knowing he's enjoying hurting me so much-..

Xin Tu by Dicky Cheung Wei Jian (信徒 - 張衛健)

One of my favourite songs of all time, this song never failed to get me carried away. It's deep in meaning; just wanna share it with other philosophers of love out there. The translation is by me, so I'm so sorry if it's doesn't quite literal (that's not the point of a poem, right?).
For another translation, click here.

Xin Tu - Believer

Zhi dao ni shen me hua dou bu shuo / Lian jin you de lei dou ren zhu

There's not a word comes out from your mouth. There are tears being held up inside.

Wo cai zhi dao pei zhe ni shang lu / Kuai le bu shi wei yi ren wu

I just realized, accompanying you in this journey, is not about gaining happines.

Zhi dao wo shi xian kai shi mo hu / Er ni que man lian bu zai hu

My sight has started to become blurry, but still, you're not showing any emotion.

Wo cai ming bai xue hui bian fa shu / Ye hui bu dao zui chu

I've just understand that even though I learn to do magic, I still can't change the past.

*Yi bian ai, yi bian zou

One side is love, the other side is leaving.

Wo yi jing cheng wei ni xin tu / Xiang xin, jin dao shen chu bu pa gu du

I've become your disciple, believing that a deep love afraid not of loneliness.

#Ru guo wo men bu ceng kan guo dui fang zen me ku

If we've never seen our consort hurting.

Ru he zhi dao kuai le yi zhuan shen jiu shi tong ku

How do we know that on the other side of love coin is suffering.

Xiang bu dao ni jue wang de lei shui / Yi cha na rang wo da che da wu

I've never thought that your tears of disappoinment, would bring me to my senses.

Ru guo wo men bu ceng zou guo gan qing zhe tiao lu

If we've never walked down this road of passion.

Ru he zhi dao xin mo shi zui chen zhong de bao fu

How do we know that the inner evil is our heaviest burden.

Nian shao qing kuang de hao ri zi / Yi dong shi jiu jie shu#

The good days of our youth, is over once we start to understand.

Zhi dao wo men dou bu yuan hui gu / Lian jin you de hen dou ma mu

Neither of us want to look back, all the hatred inside has been numbed.

Wo cai zhi dao gai chong xin shang lu / Jie shou ming yun de xin ren wu

I've just realized, to start over is to accept Fate's new task.

Zhi dao wo men dou bian de mo hu / Ye hao bu zai hu ying he shu

Our minds have become clouded, and we no longer care of winning or losing.

Wo cai ming bai gan qing de fa shu / Bu shi wei le zheng fu

I've just understand, the magic of love is not about conquering.

Back to * #

~[Fairytales]~

I don't remember anymore, how long have it been
The last time I heard you talked about your favorite fairy tale
I'm thinking hard, I'm starting to forget
Have I done you any wrong?
While crying you told me, fairy tales are all lies
There's no way I'm your prince charming
Probably you just don't understand
The moment you tell me you love me
All the stars in my world are sparkling

I will, I can, and I want to be the angel
that you love from the fairy tales
Spread my arms turn to wings to protect you
You have to believe, believe that what we have
can be like fairy tales

Happy ever after is the end of us
Together will we write our 'The End'

-Translated from Tong Hua by Guang Liang

I'm just back from my year-end holiday. And guess what... I am -oh- so in love. With...guess who! [clue: look at the picture]

He's one very cool, cute, mature guy. He's very ambitious. He knows what he wants, and just go for it, like nothing can stand in his way. And he is smart too, "unusually talented" that's what people say about him. And I agree. He doesn't talk too much [exactly the kind of guy I like!], polite, and thirsty for knowledge. Too good to be true, huh? :-) I bet many girls like him, too. *hiks!*