About * L O V E *

Bila suatu hari pasangan Anda meminta Anda melakukan atraksi sirkus: berjalan diatas seutas tali yang terbentang di ketinggian 3 meter, sekadar untuk menyenangkan hatinya, akankah anda melakukannya? Anda tahu itu akan menjadi tindakan yang sangat bodoh, bila anda benar-benar melakukannya. 

“Sekadar untuk menyenangkan hatinya? Bagaimana bila aku jatuh dan patah tulang?” Anda juga tahu, bila pasangan Anda benar-benar mencintai Anda, ia tidak akan meminta Anda melakukan hal konyol seperti itu. Tetapi pertanyaannya adalah, akankah Anda melakukannya untuk dia –-dia, yang Anda cintai?

Mencintai adalah sebuah pilihan. Mencintai bukanlah menginginkan, apalagi meminta kebahagiaan. Sebaliknya, mencintai adalah memberikan kebahagiaan pada orang yang anda cintai. Cinta itu harus tetap ada, bahkan ketika orang yang kita cintai tidak (lagi) mencintai kita. Mencintai bukanlah sekadar “aku akan tetap mencintaimu walaupun kamu pergi.”

Tetapi, “aku akan tetap mencintaimu walaupun kamu menyelamatkan dia terlebih dahulu, ketika dia dan aku akan tenggelam.”

Mereka bilang, cinta butuh pengorbanan. Tidak. Bila Anda benar-benar mencintai, Anda tidak akan merasa sedang berkorban.

Kita harus mulai merevisi ulang makna cinta dalam kamus hidup kita. Akan menjadi pekerjaan yang sulit, memang, karena sudah entah berapa lama makna ‘cinta’ itu disalah-artikan.

-inspired by: I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris

From both sides~

I saw her today

It's been a long time
Feel like centuries
She seems alright
He look just like he used to
We talked for a while
I can't take my eyes off him
She kept looking at me, don't know why
He didn't want to look at me, don't know why
She asked, "how are you?"
He asked, "do you have a boyfriend?"
I told her about my new girlfriend
I said no...
I pretended that I care
I pretended that I don't care
She look different from she used to
He looked more attractive that he was
She said, "ok then, see you around"
He said, "goodbye.."
Then I went to play basketball
Then I went home and cry

Keepers of faith..

Are you a believer?

Starving no more...

Like any other teenagers, I've been struggling with my weight.
Hollywood and runway have spread a disease called flat-abs-obsession syndrome.
Which make every single teenagers --girls AND boys-- and even mid-ages worship anyone who has that 'body to die for'.
That's right...TO DIE FOR.
Ever heard of anorexia [which now already developed to pregnorexia] and bulimia?
Because of 'that body', many people have starved themselves.
And that's exactly what I did.
I starved myself, cursing me when I eat rice a grain too much.
Until some times ago, I'm having a terrible stomachache.
It's like something wild moving in my stomach,
torturing me, and making me feel like I wanna throw up.
Well, I did once.
And the strange thing is, it's only happened in the evening.
After a week of misery, I realize --my body has react differently to respon my HUNGER.
That's when I knew THIS GOT TO STOP
Now, I learn to love the body I'm in.
I eat everything I want to eat: ice cram, cookies, pizza --everything.
Not too much that I want to throw up, though [hey, I said, I LOVE MY BODY]
I move my body more, too.
Instead of watching movie-stars and models showing their starving bodies in the telly,
I clean my house whenever I don't have anything to do.
It's a great excersize, and also making my home a more comfortable place to live.
And the result to my body? Not bad.. [see image, hehe...]

Next time anyone commented you're fat/ugly/anything bad,
ask them when is their birthday... so that you can buy them a mirror.

Soundtrack: Ugly by Sugababes

Love~

I think I'm in love.
But I don't know whether it is love.

This kind of feeling can be very deceiving.
There are times when I'm missing him so much.
Remembering our silent conversation.
Remembering the things that we've shared to each other.
Dreams, fear, worry, laugh, anger. Everything.

There are times when I hate him so much.
For coming to my life... then dissappear
                without a trace.
For giving me so much joy... then take it away
                like I don't deserve it.
For teaching me to believe in love... then denying it himself.

There are times, I really want him to know:
You mean so much for me.
You know I'd give everything for you
                but you also know that I don't have everthing.
If you want me to stay, I will do just that.
If you want me to go away, because you happier that way
                                                ...I will do just that.

There are times I hate myself.
Because I never had the courage to tell him everything I want him to know.
Soundtrack: That's Where You Find Love by Westlife