am I've just received a call. I have to come to Batam TV station tomorrow evening to have some kind of acting class, and then do some ads so people will vote for me! [like "here's my number, sms 'BTI space EvaBerlin to...' "] *lol* Well, wish me luck!!
pmI'm back from the audition tonight -again. But this time, I just went there to accompany Rosiana. She passed too! So we both will go to Batam TV station tomorrow at 3 p.m. Rosiana did very great. Well, at first, she was nervous, so her expressions weren't obvious. One of the judges asked her to do a 'scene' where she got rape then found out that she was pregnant. This time her acting is marvelous, she even cry a real one and saying things like "I have to kill myself, I'm going to kill myself".
I'm so drown with jealousy, you know. No, not because Rosiana has passed the audition [I'm so happy for her!]. But because tonight when I was watching the other participants... when they passed and they got off from the stage, their family or friends [or both] will congratulate them, and laughing, and everything. One of the participant said that she came there without any support from her parents, because her parents think the whole artist-thing is absurb. But, she was there with 4 or 5 friends. When the judges said she passed, her friends were cheering like crazy. Even Rosiana has someone to share the joy. Her mother wasn't there when she did the audition. But by the time the audition over, her mother pick her up, and Rosiana was describing the whole audition with enthusiasm.
Anyway, all I have to worry now is tomorrow's shooting though [ehm, sounds so cool, 'shooting']. So I'd better get some sleep now... Good night!
Gues what! I took part in audition of BTI [Bintang Tionghua Indonesia (Indonesia Chinese Star --sound weird in English *lol*) that is], and... I passed! Well, only to the semifinal, but that is sooo good already. There were 4 judges in the audition; 2 men and 2 women. They asked us [the participants] to do expression of gladness, anger, sadness, and happiness. Yeah, at first I was confused too, what's the different between gladness and happiness. Then I understood -watching the other participants before me- that gladness is like when you smiling at something funny, but happiness is like when you win 1-million-dollars lottery. So I did the expressions, to my surprise, the judges said my 'sadness' was not obvious. I thought the only expression I'm good at is sadness. So one of the judges wanted me to act out some kind of scene: where my mother had already died, and I cried "please don't leave me...!" Oh yeah, that is so oh-what-a-coincidence. My mom HAD already died [but of course I didn't tell the judges that or otherwise they would've changed the 'scene']. And do you realize what the weirdest thing is? That is exactly what I said when my mother passed away: Mom, please don't leave me...! Anyway, so I started to act... and I started to cry -real one. My voice became shaky and there were tears.. The judges were so impressed *lol*. But judge number one said "It's easy to shed tears in acting, but I can see your face still smiling". I was like "...what?!" Well, it's good though. It's all good. Haha..so I'm going to the semifinal on 19th. Oh, before that, my best mate Rosiana will have the audition on 15th. So I have to come to give her some support.
You know, what makes me happy passing this audition is not that I believe I will [or hoping to] get the part [read: becoming an actress], not at all, I know I'm sooo far from that. But passing this become some kind of...self proving. That "hey, I can act too". That finally at the very least, there's something I can do that some people appreciate. Besides, I took part for the experience, and I know I'll get so much from this. Ugh, and you know what, the female judges said I'm beautiful [thank you!]. And Rosiana said she can't believe that I can did that, confidently. All she knew was the geeky shy Eva Berlin. Well people I'm overdue, give me some room, I'm coming through.
*lol* I'm glad I'm so much better than me years ago. I really have to thank my God, Jesus Christ. Selamat -my other best mate- was right, I really have to turn to God in everything :-)
It's my IELTS test today. As you all know, there are 4 parts in IELTS test: listening, reading, writing, and speaking. The first three were on 4th, today was speaking. I had no problem in listening and reading. But then in writing...the time is so not enough. So my grammar was like...sucks. They only gave us an hour, and the questions were "describe the graphs below" and "what do you think the advantages and disadvantages of private healthcare?" I don't even understand what on earth 'private healthcare' is [can someone tell me, please..?] I spent 40 minutes for the firstquestion alone, so when I got to question number two I thought whatever, I'll just write down whatever comes to my mind. That is not the worst just yet. In speaking, I was asked many questions which I don't even know the answers in Indonesian [my mother language]. I'm talking about questions like: "How do you think fashion has affect our world today?" "Is it more important for teenager or older people to follow fashion?" "Describe the clothes you bought recently, where did you bought it, and why do you bought it." I was thinking "Well, I did NOT buy any clothes LATELY". I end up talking crap about the dress I bought for my dad's wedding.. I'm so anxious waiting for the result. It would be so embarrasing if I fail the test, I'll be mocked to death if not for the rest of my life. Oh dear Lord Jesus Christ, please please please let me pass the test....
I think it would be fun to note down films I've watched in my life.
It turns out to be very surprising how many movies I've watched over the years.Here's the list. I put links [for trailer] to the films that I reccomend and films which I think inconspicuous to many.
A Smile Like Yours Ace Ventura - Pet Detective Ace Ventura - When Nature Calls America's Sweethearts Anaconda Anna and the King Austin Powers: International Man of Mystery Aquamarine Back to the Future Backflash Batman Forever The Beach Bedazzled Black Knight Brokeback Mountain Bruce Almighty Butterfly Effect, The Catch Me If You Can Charlie's Angel Chronicles of Narnia - The Lion, The Witch, and The WardrobeCleopatra[starring Leonor Varela]Click Confession of A Teenage Drama Queen Constantine Date Movie DaVinci Code, The Death Becomes Her Desperado Die Hard Die Hard: With A Vengeance Dude, Where's My Car?
Lake House League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, The Look Who's Talking Lords of the Rings: The Fellowship of the RingLords of the Rings: The Two TowersLords of the Rings: The Return of the King Madagascar Man In the Iron Mask, The Marvin's Room Mary Higgins Clark: All Around the Town Matrix, The Matrix Reloaded Matrix Revolution May Mean Girls Meet Joe Black Men In Black I & II Mexican, The Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: The Movie Mission Impossible I & II Moulin Rouge Mr. and Mrs. Smith Mummy, The Mummy Returns, The My Best Friend's Wedding My Big Fat Greek Wedding
Ocean's Eleven Once Upon A Time In China Panic Room Passion of the Christ, The The PatriotPearl Harbour Perfume Phantom of the Opera, ThePirates of the Carribean - Cursed of the Black Pearl Pirates of the Carribean - Dead Man's Chest Poltergeist Primal Fear Princess Diaries, The 1 & 2 Reach the Rock Recruit, The Ring, The Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves Robocop Romeo + Juliet Saw I & Saw II Scary Movie 1, 2, 3, 4. Scent of A Woman Scooby Doo Scream 1, 2, 3Screwed Se7en See No Evil, Hear No Evil Seven Years In Tibet Shanghai Noon Shanghai Knight Shark Tale Shrek I & II Sign Silent Hill Sixth Sense Sleeping With the Enemy Sleepy Hollow Sound of Music, The Spiderman I & II Spy Kid Steal[aka Riders] Stepford Wives, The Striking Poses Sweetest Thing, The Swordfish
Taxi 3 Terminator Texas Chainsaw Massacre The Quick and the Dead There's Something About Mary Titanic Troy Truman Show, The
Would you date this girl? Oh I know you just would...
HOT, isn't she? But, sorry guys, she's taken.. by Kian Egan of Westlife*sob-sob*. Her name is Jodi Albert, she's an Irish actress, acted on Hollyoaks. Notice how he held her hand in this interview *sob harder*:
I just love this music video; the effect is awesome, Jared's voice is fantastic, not to mention the song itself is powerful! But one thing that bothers me from the start: Is that Jared kissing the girl @ 1:51?
This morning I dreamt about a place, a hospital. When I went in there are a lot of doctors and nurses [or I thought so, because they're wearing white robes], and there are also pregnant women everywhere. But the scary thing is, when I went to look at their babies, the babies are imperfect, disabled. Then someone told me that this is the organs bank. So the women here was forced to have babies, then they just use the babies to get the organs they want. Scary.
Is it the world of tomorrow or is it already happening?
God loves you. No matter you believe it or not. And by the way, God exist, no matter you believe it or not [but you'd better believe it though] -030906
I've learnt that if you want have a good relationship with people around you [and with yourself], you have to start with your relationship with God. -120706
We should do some crazy things before we grow too old to do that -200706
I've learnt that tomorrow is not alway better than today. So I learn to appreciate today. I've learnt that tomorrow will only be better if you already work on it. -120706
The way you look at people is very important, very affecting. -190306
If you don't want to get hurt, don't put your trust to anyone, no matter how convincing he/she is. But if you really love someone, you wouldn't mind to get hurt -030906
And finally, after so long, I've learnt what true love is. True love is when you're being forsaken, you still love him. Even when he save the other person first, not you, from drowning, you still love him. -130706
Loving is giving happiness, not asking for it. Loving is, "I want you to be happy, no matter what it means" -130706
And now I know what being loved truly is. Being loved is being not taken for granted. -090306
Truth is hurts [sometimes], but lies hurt even more -270906
In the end, everybody will grow old, grey and ugly. And what left is, what experiences you have to share with your children and grandchildren? So I don't mind my skin become darker if I could just learn swimming :)) -190906
Don't be ashamed by what other people have done to you. Be ashamed by something you've done to other people -290906
Lessons I've learned from my bro.. My bro is gonna kill me if he read this. But I think he's "...too busy" to do so. Even if he has the time, I don't think he cares enough to read MY blog. Like I said: Truth is horrible sometimes. I am sorry, I'm just the messenger. And, we do need to hear the truth sometimes.
1.Don't pretend you're happy with someone's presence when you're not. YOur little reactions will give you away. Like when you're get so excited when that someone is about to leave --THAT will give you away. 071006
2. How hurtful lies can be --but sometimes it is necessary [and okay] to do it.
3. Love relationship is such a waste of time in young age, except you love to rub and being rubbed --*sick face* rrrgh you know what I mean.
4. Buying expensive things and/or many things for someone does not necessary mean that you love that person. 151006 What I mean is, when you love someone and intend to show him/her that you love him/her, there are millions things you can do other than buying them things.
5. Don't give when you're not asked to or when you don't feel like giving. Because if you do, by the time that person ask something -he/she really needs- from you, you'd think you've given too much, then you'll get angry. 071006
6. It is true that this world is not fair, and we have to get used to it. But that does not give us the rights to do unfair things to other people.
7. Just because you/I don't see it, doesn't mean it didn't happen. Soundtrack of the day: Where'd you go by Fort Minor