Soundtrack of the day: White Flag by Dido (in a happy context, please)
Listen to this, this is my horoscope of the day from Friendster:
You're never more happy than when you're needed -- you should be very happy, today!
It's always surprising how the horoscope can SOMETIMES really point out what's going to happen to day. Well, of course, the rest of this horoscope is not as precise as it should be. The later explanation of why I should be happy is completely wrong.. But anyway, what I'm trying to say is, YES, I AM SO VERY HAPPY TODAY! I've told you that these are happiest days in my life, but today, I have particular reasons to be happy; I'm not going to elaborate on them, though :p
Anyway, move on to another topic: After much reminiscing (and few cups of coffee) in the last 25 hours, I've come up with the "insanest" theory: The problem in this Life is not about it's being fair or unfair, but rather, the problem is us being jealous. Yes, jealousy.When you think that your friend get higher mark than you, and you deserve whole lot better than you get, you think that life is unfair. Well, probably you're just jealous. When the cute guy over there is paying more attention to the annoying b!#ch across than nice sweety girl over here. And you think life is unfair. Well, guess what, it's probably just jealousy.
Don't you agree?
It's not a bad thing, though. I've come to believe that jealousy is there to balance our ego, so that we always remember that we're not that great, that there are many other people better, nicer, richer, prettier, etc, than you are. We can also use it for a better purpose. Ambitious as it may sound, we can use jealousy (with hatred, if you must) as a driving force to reach something you want. Believe me, it works so well..
Stupid girl, stupid girls, stupid girls Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl Go to Fred Segal, you'll find them there Laughing loud so all the little people stare Looking for a daddy to pay for the champagne (Drop a name) What happened to the dreams of a girl president She's dancing in the video next to 50 Cent They travel in packs of two or three With their itsy bitsy doggies and their teeny-weeny tees Where, oh where, have the smart people gone? Oh where, oh where could they be? Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl Baby if I act like that, flipping my blond hair back Push up my bra like that, I don't wanna be a stupid girl (Break it down now) Disease's growing, it's epidemic. I'm scared that there ain't a cure The world believes it and I'm going crazy. I cannot take any more I'm so glad that I'll never fit in - That will never be me Outcasts and girls with ambition. That's what I wanna see Disasters all around. World despaired Their only concern: "Will they **** up my hair?" [Interlude] Oh my god you guys, I totally had more than 300 calories That was so not sexy, no. Good one, can I borrow that? [Vomits] I WILL BE SKINNY (Do ya thing, do ya thing, do ya thing) (I like this, like this, like this) Pretty will you **** me girl, silly as a lucky girl Pull my head and suck it girl, stupid girl! Baby if I act like that, flipping my blond hair back Push up my bra like that, stupid girl!
Notice me, take my hand. Why are we strangers when our love was strong? Why carry on Without me?
Everytime I try to fly, I fall. Without my wings I feel so small. I guess I need you baby. And everytime I see you in my dreams, I see your face. It's haunting me. I guess I need you baby.
I make believe that you are here. It's the only way I see clear. What have I done? You seem to move on easy.
I may have made it rain. Please forgive me. My weakness caused you pain. And this song's my sorry. At night I pray, that soon your face will fade away.
One of my favorite Indonesian music videos, ever! I always had a thing for mermaids, moreover the story of love between mermaid and human. And this video presents a story line.
Check out the lyric, it's so touching *sobsob*: Mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku, mengagumi tanpa dicintai. Tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia dengan hidupmu, dengan hidupmu. Telah lama kupendam perasaan itu, menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku. Tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku. Reff (twice): Kuingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu. Meski kutunggu hingga ujung waktuku. Dan berharap rasa ini 'kan abadi untuk selamanya. Dan ijinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja. 'Tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya. Dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja.
There are more lies than broken promises. There are more lies around you than you realize. The promises of love, of parent's love, of best friends', the promises of shoulder you can cry on, of helping hands, of anything on earth. It's all lies. Where are they when your world's falling apart? Where are they when you're trying so hard picking up your shattered dream? When you bleed by crystallized tears? Keeping their own world and dreams safe. Away from you. They break your heart with their lies, stomp on it with their indifference, throw it away and laugh away. Then they're condemn you for not having a heart?!
One of my favourite songs of all time, this song never failed to get me carried away. It's deep in meaning; just wanna share it with other philosophers of love out there. The translation is by me, so I'm so sorry if it's doesn't quite literal (that's not the point of a poem, right?).
For another translation, click here.
I don't remember anymore, how long have it been The last time I heard you talked about your favorite fairy tale I'm thinking hard, I'm starting to forget Have I done you any wrong? While crying you told me, fairy tales are all lies There's no way I'm your prince charming Probably you just don't understand The moment you tell me you love me All the stars in my world are sparkling
I will, I can, and I want to be the angel that you love from the fairy tales Spread my arms turn to wings to protect you You have to believe, believe that what we have can be like fairy tales
Happy ever after is the end of us
Together will we write our 'The End'
When I need you I'm close to tears Cos you almost here Only almost here Cos when you finally home You never exactly come home It was nice to know that you were there Thanks for acting like you care Making me feel like I was the only one