What it means to love someone~

When you love someone...
...you want him to be happy, whatever it means.
...you want to be a better person because of and for him.

Guess what, he dropped by and viewed my Friendster page! One thing I never imagine he would do -not after what have happened between us. But he did! I was so pleasantly surprised, I took a screenshot of my Friendster's Who Viewed Me page :p
I never admit it to anyone, but I do miss him - as a FRIEND. We used to hang out together, and I miss those times. Maybe he misses them too? Maybe -I almost dare not to think about it- he misses me??

Like the song says:
Have you ever stayed up waiting for a telephone call, just to hear her say hello cause you miss each other's soul?
But I'm not sure about the 'each other' part, maybe it's just me missing him.

Yes, I miss his "soul". How he never failed to give me a sense of security whenever I'm with him. But, I barely knew this, he always feel insecure whenever he's with me. How sad, and how pathetic I am. I push away the only guy I want to be close to. And he never realize how much he means to me, how he's so great in my eyes.
And now that I really think about it, he WAS and IS the best guy I've ever known :'( I miss him.

I always praise parents because of their child,
and not the child because of their parents.

The dark cloud places a piece of shadow in our hearts

I listen respectfully to my mood,
which has already been quiet for a long time
Clear and transparent
Just like the beautiful scenery
It's always only clear when seeing it in my memory
Can the heart, that has been thoroughly hurt, still continue to love me?
I make an effort to pull up the pair of hands that have no warmth
The tenderness in the past has already been locked by time
Only leaving sadness that doesn't go away
The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
I light a candle to warm up the end of autumn
The northern lights plunder the edge of the sky
The northern wind brushes past the expressions of missing you
I take love and burn it into fallen leaves
Yet I can't get back that familiar face
The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
Why must retrieving be hurried before winter comes?
Loving you passing through time
Two rows of tears from the end of autumn
Let love permeate through the ground
All I want is you to be by my side
The graceful red rain in between the mountainside
Withering with the north wind
I lightly swing the wind chimesI want
To awaken the love that has been deserted
Snowflakes are already spread all over the ground
Deeply scared that the maple leaves outside the window have already become frozen

song by Jay Chou

30STM- "Edge of The Earth" on The Late Late Show

So we all know that 30 Seconds to Mars always did a marvelous live shows. But this one is one of my favourites:  Edge of the Earth @The Late Late Show!
N.B.: Check out Jared's guitar --it's the Pythagoras!