~Audi alteram partem~

You know your part of the story. Now hear the other side.
Cos everyone just want to be heard
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Right, soundtrack of the day is Stupid Girls by Pink.

It's just hanging around my head since yesterday. I try not to think about it, cos it's like an old injustice since the ancient time (well, not really, perhaps only since the created the term "celebrity"), but it keeps lingering around:
It's the topic of "The Popular Girls"
Uh-huh. So we all know that they're the ones who always get the attention. Not only by the guys, but also by the teachers, and everyone in between. Have you seen the movie 'Mean Girls'? It's pretty much like that. I don't even want to talk about it cos it's such a common knowledge it gets sickening.

But one other thing that bothers me ugly is, they hate studying. They didn't exactly come to school for studying. I can't say for sure that they like knowledge or education, either. But with less effort, they get the pretty much the same result as other people --as other diligent people.
And so, the most glorious question of all time emerges: WHY?
So, we also know that this life is unfair, right? That we -or, I- should just get over with it and face facts, right? But, I can't! It's just....
Why? WHY? WHY?!

I began to have doubts about the Academy I study in [may God forgive my poor soul]. Perhaps I should have went to a school where all the students are geeks, and there's no so-called popular anybody. But oh well, I'm here anyway. God put me here for a reason (right?). Might as well carry on till the last drop of blood.


Stupid girl, stupid girls, stupid girls
Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Go to Fred Segal, you'll find them there
Laughing loud so all the little people stare
Looking for a daddy to pay for the champagne (Drop a name)
What happened to the dreams of a girl president
She's dancing in the video next to 50 Cent
They travel in packs of two or three
With their itsy bitsy doggies and their teeny-weeny tees
Where, oh where, have the smart people gone? Oh where, oh where could they be?
Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Baby if I act like that, flipping my blond hair back
Push up my bra like that, I don't wanna be a stupid girl

(Break it down now)
Disease's growing, it's epidemic. I'm scared that there ain't a cure
The world believes it and I'm going crazy. I cannot take any more
I'm so glad that I'll never fit in - That will never be me
Outcasts and girls with ambition. That's what I wanna see
Disasters all around. World despaired
Their only concern: "Will they **** up my hair?"
[Interlude]
Oh my god you guys, I totally had more than 300 calories
That was so not sexy, no. Good one, can I borrow that?

[Vomits] I WILL BE SKINNY
(Do ya thing, do ya thing, do ya thing)
(I like this, like this, like this)
Pretty will you **** me girl, silly as a lucky girl
Pull my head and suck it girl, stupid girl!
Baby if I act like that, flipping my blond hair back
Push up my bra like that, stupid girl!

I cannot believe Jared didn't win! *is throwing tantrums* And harder to believe, he didn't win from Frank Iero!
>Official PETA news<

But *ahem* anyway, enough about Jared Leto, let's talk about ME :D


Well, I had a speaking test today. And, I really hate it to talk so long (five minutes, actually) in front of so many people. But, my, aren't I surprise that it all went well :)
Of course, NOT astonishing or anything. But I didn't toss my notes or stumble on my way to the front, that's good enough.

Anyway, there's another notable thing that happened today. I accidentally saw this video about "Oprah's church" on YouTube:


May I note first, I really don't like the title using the word "exposed." Feels like it was accusing the New Earth belief as some kind of crime or something.
It is a shocking new lesson, of course, but it is bad enough to claim that "We are the only truth." Moreover to say that "We are the only truth, and you are all wrong."
I just want to comment something about what Oprah had said starting around 4:10 : Why don't we put it this way, that God is so love us, that He jealous? Like, if you love someone so much, no matter how open-minded you are, at some point, you WILL jealous if s/he started to like someone else. Right? Don't you dare to say no.

And, in 4:28... Oprah, God is not jealous OF you. God is jealous BECAUSE OF you.
Well, of course, I'm not in the position to correct her. My first language isn't English, and I'm not the one who's been hosting a talk show for the last 23 years (geez, I haven't even born by the time she started the show).

5:20 How can you learn from a so-called teacher who doesn't even know where he's going when he's dead? And very curious that the video is cut out to another scene before he finish his answer....
5:34 How can you feel when you don't believe?

Okay, this one is a bit more personal. In minutes 4:45, Oprah said "...the search of something more than doctrine."
It always take me by surprise how everyone outside Christianity (sometimes even turned-Christians) say to me, "How can you worship a God which is indoctrinated to you since childhood?" Well, if you said that to me when I was 10, I probably speechless. But, hello?! I'm more than 2 decades of age right now, don't you think I have questioned God myself? Don't you think I've searched of "the other answers/ways" myself?
Well, I have. And I have yet to find a better truer God than Jesus Christ.

But anyway, all in all, I can only agree with the narrator:
Christians! It's time to open your eyes, shut down your TV, and pray!

rantRANT!

Soundtrack of the day: Phase 1 Fortification by 30 Seconds to Mars.

Only in God do I find my strength. How true, David.

You can search through and through, nowhere else will you find a shelter. Thank God, I found You.
Here I am today, on the peak of the happiest days in my life. And I’ve learnt not to dismiss such feelings like these. I need to memorize it, conserve it, for strength in darker days.
But still, my happiest days are tainted. Not only by small patches of annoying things (we all have those), but by spits of some madmen. As always, like so many times before; it amazes me why I never get used to it. Will I ever get used to it?

Selfish. Can someone please define that word for me? Better yet, give me few examples?
Selfish. It’s an adjective isn’t it? Like angry? So everyone has it and does it, right? Selfishness, like anger? Only in different measures? So why point your finger at other people when you still do the same thing? Geez, buy a mirror. Or talk a walk at the mall, there are many reflective surfaces in there.
We have our own weaknesses, our own weak moments. Why can’t we live friendlier to each other? Loosen the rules, who cares anyway?! Loosen the rules, or we all are going to die suffocated!
“All of your life, trying to be… You are the one who cannot see..”
God, this is confusing! I’m having headache..