~Audi alteram partem~

You know your part of the story. Now hear the other side.
Cos everyone just want to be heard
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I've just received a call. I have to come to Batam TV station tomorrow evening to have some kind of acting class, and then do some ads so people will vote for me! [like "here's my number, sms 'BTI space EvaBerlin to...' "] *lol* Well, wish me luck!!

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I'm back from the audition tonight -again. But this time, I just went there to accompany Rosiana. She passed too! So we both will go to Batam TV station tomorrow at 3 p.m. Rosiana did very great. Well, at first, she was nervous, so her expressions weren't obvious. One of the judges asked her to do a 'scene' where she got rape then found out that she was pregnant. This time her acting is marvelous, she even cry a real one and saying things like "I have to kill myself, I'm going to kill myself".

I'm so drown with jealousy, you know. No, not because Rosiana has passed the audition [I'm so happy for her!]. But because tonight when I was watching the other participants... when they passed and they got off from the stage, their family or friends [or both] will congratulate them, and laughing, and everything. One of the participant said that she came there without any support from her parents, because her parents think the whole artist-thing is absurb. But, she was there with 4 or 5 friends. When the judges said she passed, her friends were cheering like crazy. Even Rosiana has someone to share the joy. Her mother wasn't there when she did the audition. But by the time the audition over, her mother pick her up, and Rosiana was describing the whole audition with enthusiasm.

Anyway, all I have to worry now is tomorrow's shooting though [ehm, sounds so cool, 'shooting']. So I'd better get some sleep now... Good night!
zzzzzzzzzz......

One of the happiest days of my life...

Gues what! I took part in audition of BTI [Bintang Tionghua Indonesia (Indonesia Chinese Star --sound weird in English *lol*) that is], and... I passed! Well, only to the semifinal, but that is sooo good already.
There were 4 judges in the audition; 2 men and 2 women. They asked us [the participants] to do expression of gladness, anger, sadness, and happiness. Yeah, at first I was confused too, what's the different between gladness and happiness. Then I understood -watching the other participants before me- that gladness is like when you smiling at something funny, but happiness is like when you win 1-million-dollars lottery. So I did the expressions, to my surprise, the judges said my 'sadness' was not obvious. I thought the only expression I'm good at is sadness. So one of the judges wanted me to act out some kind of scene: where my mother had already died, and I cried "please don't leave me...!" Oh yeah, that is so oh-what-a-coincidence. My mom HAD already died [but of course I didn't tell the judges that or otherwise they would've changed the 'scene']. And do you realize what the weirdest thing is? That is exactly what I said when my mother passed away: Mom, please don't leave me...!

Anyway, so I started to act... and I started to cry -real one. My voice became shaky and there were tears.. The judges were
so impressed *lol*. But judge number one said "It's easy to shed tears in acting, but I can see your face still smiling". I was like "...what?!" Well, it's good though. It's all good. Haha..so I'm going to the semifinal on 19th. Oh, before that, my best mate Rosiana will have the audition on 15th. So I have to come to give her some support.

You know, what makes me happy passing this audition is not that I believe I will [or hoping to] get the part [read: becoming an actress], not at all, I know I'm sooo far from that. But passing this become some kind of...self proving. That "hey, I can act too". That finally at the very least, there's something I can do that some people appreciate. Besides, I took part for the experience, and I know I'll get so much from this.
Ugh, and you know what, the female judges said I'm beautiful [thank you!]. And Rosiana said she can't believe that I can did that, confidently. All she knew was the geeky shy Eva Berlin. Well people I'm overdue, give me some room, I'm coming through.

*lol* I'm glad I'm so much better than me years ago. I really have to thank my God, Jesus Christ. Selamat -my other best mate- was right, I really have to turn to God in everything :-)
It's my IELTS test today. As you all know, there are 4 parts in IELTS test: listening, reading, writing, and speaking. The first three were on 4th, today was speaking. I had no problem in listening and reading. But then in writing...the time is so not enough. So my grammar was like...sucks. They only gave us an hour, and the questions were "describe the graphs below" and "what do you think the advantages and disadvantages of private healthcare?" I don't even understand what on earth 'private healthcare' is [can someone tell me, please..?] I spent 40 minutes for the firstquestion alone, so when I got to question number two I thought whatever, I'll just write down whatever comes to my mind.
That is not the worst just yet. In speaking, I was asked many questions which I don't even know the answers in Indonesian [my mother language]. I'm talking about questions like:
"How do you think fashion has affect our world today?"
"Is it more important for teenager or older people to follow fashion?"
"Describe the clothes you bought recently, where did yiou bought it, and why do you bought it" I was thinking "Well, I did NOT buy any clothes LATELY". I end up talking crap about the dress I bought for my dad's wedding..
I'm so anxious waiting for the result. It would be so embarrasing if I fail the test, I'll be mocked to death if not for the rest of my life. Oh dear Lord Jesus Christ, please please please let me pass the test....



Films I've watched in my life...

I think it would be fun to note down films I've watched in my life.
It turns out to be very surprising how many movies I've watched over the years. Here's the list. I put links [for trailer] to the films that I reccomend and films which I think inconspicuous to many.

A Smile Like Yours
Ace Ventura - Pet Detective
Ace Ventura - When Nature Calls
America's Sweethearts
Anaconda
Anna and the King
Austin Powers: International Man of Mystery
Aquamarine

Back to the Future
Backflash
Batman Forever
The Beach
Bedazzled
Black Knight
Brokeback Mountain
Bruce Almighty
Butterfly Effect, The

Catch Me If You Can
Charlie's Angel
Chronicles of Narnia -
The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe
Cleopatra [starring Leonor Varela]
Click
Confession of A Teenage Drama Queen
Constantine

Date Movie
DaVinci Code, The
Death Becomes Her
Desperado
Die Hard
Die Hard: With A Vengeance
Dude, Where's My Car?


Ella Enchanted
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Evita
Eye of the Beholder
Eyes Wide Shut

Face/Off
Faculty
, The
Fight Club
Flinstones, The
The Fog
Forrest Gump

Girl Next Door, The
Gladiator
Glass House, The

Halloween H20: 20 Years Later

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
Hell Boy
Hitch
Home Alone
How to Lose A Guy In Ten Days

I Know What You Did Last Summer
I Still Know What You Did Last Summer
Independence Day

Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back!
Jerry Maguire
Joe Dirt
Jumanji
Jurrasic Park

Karate Kid, The


Lake House
League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, The
Look Who's Talking
Lords of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
Lords of the Rings: The Two Towers
Lords of the Rings: The Return of the King

Madagascar
Man In the Iron Mask, The
Marvin's Room
Mary Higgins Clark: All Around the Town
Matrix, The

Matrix Reloaded

Matrix Revolution
May
Mean Girls
Meet Joe Black
Men In Black I & II
Mexican, The
Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: The Movie
Mission Impossible I & II
Moulin Rouge
Mr. and Mrs. Smith
Mummy, The
Mummy Returns, The
My Best Friend's Wedding
My Big Fat Greek Wedding


New York Minutes
Notebook, The

Ocean's Eleven
Once Upon A Time In China

Panic Room
Passion of the Christ, The
The Patriot
Pearl Harbour
Perfume
Phantom of the Opera, The
Pirates of the Carribean - Cursed of the Black Pearl
Pirates of the Carribean - Dead Man's Chest
Poltergeist
Primal Fear
Princess Diaries, The 1 & 2

Reach the Rock
Recruit, The
Ring, The
Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves
Robocop
Romeo + Juliet

Saw I & Saw II
Scary Movie 1, 2, 3, 4.
Scent of A Woman
Scooby Doo
Scream 1, 2, 3
Screwed
Se7en
See No Evil, Hear No Evil
Seven Years In Tibet
Shanghai Noon
Shanghai Knight

Shark Tale
Shrek I & II
Sign
Silent Hill
Sixth Sense
Sleeping With the Enemy
Sleepy Hollow
Sound of Music, The
Spiderman I & II
Spy Kid
Steal [aka Riders]
Stepford Wives, The
Striking Poses
Sweetest Thing, The
Swordfish

Taxi 3
Terminator
Texas Chainsaw Massacre
The Quick and the Dead
There's Something About Mary
Titanic
Troy
Truman Show, The

Van Helsing
Vannila Sky

War of the Worlds, The
Wasabi
Wicker Park
Winning London

X-Men
X2: X-Men United
X-Men: The Last Stand
xXx

I'm soo broken hearted...

Would you date this girl? Oh I know you just would...

HOT, isn't she?
But, sorry guys, she's taken.. by Kian Egan of Westlife *sob-sob*. Her name is Jodi Albert, she's an Irish actress, acted on Hollyoaks. Notice how he held her hand in this interview *sob harder*: